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MY MARSHMELLOW LOOKING SEXY =)

tonite i met up with joseph and gosh he lost like so much weight it was nice of him to driv down to bedford and meet up with me..i brought clarie and jeniffer along with me..we ended up going to mcdonalds and drank hot chocolate and mcflurry...hehe..it was so soo funny cus he had the biggest stereo sysytem EVER and we almost went deafff like seriouslyy!! his fren just burnt a cd for him and Girls just wanna hav fun songg came up!! and i was HEYY.play that songg..and we were like..OHHH````` girlss just wanna have fun!!allala..and he was like OMG cant believe im playing this song on my huge ass sstereo systemm..anyways it was fun =)

i talked to my love darren my darling..he is soo soo amazing...i nevr knew i had a dream until he came into my life..evrytime im near him i just cant stop smiling and laughingg...hes trying hiss mightiest to come here and be with me and i hope he can..eventhough hes a milllion miless away from me it doesnt matter cus all i wanna do is just love him..eheh..through all the disappointments i have had with lovee and the trust that i gave i am hopeful that this wont be another disappointment..when i look at him i wan him to be my alwes alwes..ahah..gosh once a hopeless romantic ,alwes a hopeless romantic i guess....

okie dedication = darren chai! =)...congratulations my love!

welll..darren as i would like to call..MY LOvE and chocolaye bunny =)...ive known him since we were like 13? but never got to courage or talked to each other..he was alwes he hot tennis player!!..ahha well to me anywayss..faith stepped in and decided to give us a chance and though it was retarded timing cus i was alredi gonna leave to the UK and he was in AUS..well god workss in mysterious ways and all we can do iss just follow..muakz..that was a dificult time in my lifee...so much tears and heartache...he was alwes alwes there for me..he'll call me whenevr and wherevr..and make me feel better..i alwes ended up laughing like mad evrytime he starts a conversation even when my heart was feeling heavy...i remember when we spent the whole night talking for 6 hours and wondered where did time actually go..he makes evrything worth it..and i fall more and more in love with him evryday...

he came this easter to see me cus he knew i would be sad that i can be with my family during the hols..so he bascially begged his dad for 2months to let him come and spend his 18th birthday with..we ended up celebrating it at my cousins house in london with my aunty and uncle and sum friends..hehe..he never fails to show me that he loves me and theres not a doubt in my mind that he means evrything that he says..i love that heee has the kindest heart and has a sweet spot for lil kidss...he loves to eat my yummy pancakess that i make cus it has the perfect balance of sweetness and texture..thinking about the future though very unsure and unpredictable i hope to have have his hand to hold..the saying goess like this..we go through the wrong ones only to appreciate the right one when it comess along....things may not alwes be perfect and happy but its during those times that u have to decide whether its worth it to fight for it..and if u know that it is..then by all means....dun give upp..

have u ever sat next to someone and feel like u've known them ur whole life?...<3