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hrmm..my internet being a skanky lil shyt!!

so today in biology i disected a lambs heart!!..it was soo sooo fun!! i keep the
blood clot in its coronary artery and started squeeying it till it kinda splatered
out like alot!!fiona kept asking me to stop but it was damn funnneh!! except it
stank like hell and the fat around looked freaking disgusting..and me trying to
be a plactic surgeon was trying to cut the fat off the muscle and then poking
thru the vessels to see where it will go thru...ok yeah i tink ive disgusted u all
enough..but yeah that was my morning in biology...

i misss my familyy!!i guess sumtimes i feel regretful for taking family time for granted cus right now i miss it more than ever i feel sad that i cant see my lil brother grow up...its kinda random but yeah...just have the need to protect my lil bro..tho he doesnt know it i love him..i cant believe this is what im left with....this makes me realise
how precious life realli is...the moment where we didnt have to worry is
now long gone....im just happy i still have ppl in my life i can turn to esp
when im not feeeling strong...veetag know that ur not alone yea...im alwes a
phone call away...promise u we wont fall off that cliff..and even if we realli
have to falll...il be ur parachute!! friends are the ppl that will alwes be there for you no matter what even if u do change...they will still give a shit instead of tallking crap behind ur back....this whole eyxperience has realli shown me
what is important in my life...and to stop wasting time with ppl who constantly drain the life out of u......its hard when reality cums and slaps u in the face...

is it wrong to say taht i feel as if u were the best thing that ever happened to me??..why do i feel like im not the person i was one year ago...ive changed in more ways than one...and now im torn between who i was and who i am changing into...all i know that is i love u so much!!!....my blog sounds is if im completely lovesick but i dun realli give a fuck cus this is after all my blog..and i realli do miss him!!??!!long distance is a BITCH!!..but right now i realli dun care cus even tho it hurts so bad to not see him everyday id still rather go thru this than actually not having him at all...im not gonna go off on how long distance rship is easy or hard or whatver...if u love sumone u would do anything for them..just like any other rship..this is what im doing...never take the experiences of others and plan ur life after it cus evryones different...sum ppl think that by having a long distance ur missing out on sumthing and that ur not making the most of the experience but life is what u make it to be and u make up ur own rules...so yeah...stop judging others and they wont judge u..theres just sumthing about him that makes me not give a damn ...its a constant adrenaline rush that sumtimes makes me forget to breathe!! =) i feel like yeah ive changedd...things i wanted few years ago arent necessarily the things i want now..life is all about change and PPL LETS EMBRACE THAT!!