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thingss are starting to feel extremely repetitive and i cant stand itt....whenever this starts to occur i start to reminisce about the good old days and i hate doing that. i loved high school in st.johns and all the laughter that i have made so now those memories are wrapped into perfection located in the centre of my heart. Sometimes it feels as though i am grieving the lost of a loved one or sumthing. now that i am nearing the end of this journey in my life, i realise the things that i have left behind 2years ago still remain the same . but it really isnt...

i just cant wait to go to the beach and just sit for agess until i cant stand the sandfly bites and blazing sun any longer.. the thingsss that make a home are usually the things that go unnoticed and definitely it hasnt proved me wrong as i can easily pin-point every detail of the things that i took for granted before. "we'll never appreciate until its gone"..its sad how this saying is so true but we never realise until it has happened..

i had such a long day today because mrs.davies decided to have extra chem after school so i stayed in school till 5..what a tiring day.i have my math mocks next week and my bio mocks the week after!! thingss are passing soo fast and in some weird wayy im EXCITED...cus i just cant wait to get it all over it and just work uber hard so i can fly back with an empty concious as i leave all my troubles back here in england...i just hope that the next time i fly, its to something i really anticipatee!!..i guess i have a good head start now as i am now familiar with the surroundings and no longer a newbie :)

im getting tired of this blog so i might switch preety soon to another service provider? i need a changeeee and i need a FREGGING holidaayyy there are so many plans up in the air that im struggling to decide..its strange how im at the cross-roads of teenager and young-adult, its quite scary but yet i cant wait..i might take up some classess when im back just to do something like maybe piano lessonss!!..i have always admired people who can play the piano really well, it just soothess me and i always wished i could playy like Crazzzeehhhh..christine was practising her grade 8 pieces in the dining hall yesterday and today and she was awesomee!!!

so i guess its back to drowning myself in books and notess!!!