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thank you god!!!!....today has been an extremely eventful day and im sooo happyy!!!..well i was abruptly awoken again this morningg at 545 am by veetag and it was a good surprise..ahahah...thingss in life doesnt always turn out the way that you had hoped but having people that loves and cares enough about you almost makes me easier to deal with. im grateful to have people like that around me and to know that i dont need to fake it or act strong when i know that i cant. being able to be open and vulnerable. vulnerability is a bitch and i know the feeling all to well and in a lot of ways it has turned me into the person i am today. being hurt by someone u love usually does that.

anyways,..i got my results back today and i received all A grades for my papers.. THANK GOD.i was so worried about it this morning and was praying so hard because i really didnt want to resit any papers.i was so relieved that i couldnt contain my excitement. it just made me feel as though evrything ive been doing for the past months has been worth it because i kinda regretted not coming back last december to spend christmas at home. so i grudgingly opted to stay in the UK and nowwwww im just glad it all turned out for the best...i really believe that with hard work we will definitely reap the benefits of it one day!!!..all i have to do now is work harder in the coming months and go back to brunei witth a load off my back eventhough il be panicking on results day in summer. hehe but thats a whole other blog on another day :)...life tries to take me by surprise and usually has me by the throat, life isnt perfect and i know that but i just always try to keep things positive and stop complaining about things that i cant change and things that has already happen. whenver you feel u cant go on just push yourself forward and hope for a better tomorrow.

im tired of making excuses for my feelings and just want to let it all hang out....i talked to my mummy just now and she was happy cus i was feeling happy, shes already talking about our summer plans with my sisters engagement and our trip to thailand...i thank god everyday for the things that i have in life as i try to be as grateful as i can because at any moment it could all jst disappear.