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its amazing how much free time i have to blog!..i have no life =_=..anyways i just came back from school.i had a chemistry test which was ok i guess but i could be dead wrong after i get the resultss!! there was this one question which i totally didnt geTT!!! i mean i was staring at it hoping sumthing will click in my brain!! but literallly i was in a blank StaRE!!! i mean what the hell is chromium +VI? i have never come acrosss it in my life!! then went to look for mrs.samuels to ask her on my application for a work experience in Glaxo-smith and Kline! i hope i get in!hehe..then after lunch the girls went to the common room and started looking at japanese fashion magazineS!! damn their soo pretty but about 99% of them had plastic surgery..number 1.EYES number 2.Nose number 3.mouth!! they actually do it in that order cus its this fad in japan!! i tot it was an interestting point of the day there was also this article on ayumi hamasaki she looked like nicole richie for some reason! anwyays she had like luggages and luggages of louis vuittons..and it occurred to me what if i had them and i was traveelling economy i mean il be basically be asking to be ROBBED!..yeah but i dun have to worry about that cus i wont be having luggages and lugagges of LV anytime soon...so lucky me?

i have been through quite alot of ups and downs in my life. they have all left a scar on me and i am definitely the person i am today because of it. i have been hurt,happy,grateful,heartbroken,lied to,made feel special,ovrcome death...some thingss are better left unsaid especially the things that i cant change..things will never go back to the way they were.im turning 19 and thats my last year as a teenager and in a way its the end of an eRa! gosh!!,,its insane i have no regrets but just some unanswered questions which i think will be left unanswered. if sumone were to ask me if i had spent my youth wisely and to the fullest i can honestly say up to this point yes i have! it definitely wasnt PERFECT but i wouldnt have changed it for anything. i wasnt the most rebellious and yet i wasnt a cookie-cutter as well. im just glad my parents brought me to have my priorities straight. my teenage life was always a roller coaster one crazy thing after another. even my dream to be a pro-tennis player( now that was fun) ,

my family has always been my back bone in my life without even realising it. they always huddle by my side and support me throughout my life and we have the occasional bickering but we all know that deep down theres only love.my life-long friends that i made through all those years has been one of the main highlights and all the memories are preciously stored up in my heart,they taught me how to laugh and to be who i am without having to give a reason .i ve always treasured all of them and wouldnt trade them for anything.the greatest thing about childhood freinds is that once you come back it feels as though nuthing has changed and we still laugh over the most mundane and stupid things!and also my longest standing relationship it was perfect in its own lopsided way cus he was my best fren & boyfren all wrapped into one but i guess thats the way first love rships are a bitter/sweet memory because it was the time i endured so much sadness and happiness as it was the first time i had ever been in love. All and all...i have no regrets it was good 7years from being completely naive to being alittle bit more skeptical.

The best thing about growing up is having to realise what you want out of your life and realising the possibilities!most people still dun have the answers they need but we're all edging towards something at least something that interest us. now im just excited to see whats instored for me and for u,i just hope its something goodd..