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so im back here...arrived a few days ago..i miss brunei and the people there!!. hrm being back realli made me realise what a wonerful and special place home really is and its largely due to all the people present there. i met all my family and friends..good times =) i spent loads of time with my mummy..having bfast with her evry morning where she will be dragging me off bed then going for aerobics..hehe and our saloon days..hehe..i miss that!!..i reallly misss her..though we dun always see eye-to-eye but she knows what type of a person i am. well i practically did everything i set out to do when i was back.. =) lets see..i actually went to temburong with my brother,cousin(killie) and darren.!.it was so much fun cus like we actually had to use these river boats to get there and then we reached these cabins by the rapids. we hiked up a thousand steps and reached the peak then had to climb up these ladders, by the end of it we were out of the forecst top and looking at the sky!! it was soooo beautfiul and it made me feel like i was on top of the world...ehhe..we then had a swim in the river water it was hard cus the current was so strong and water sooo cold..hehe..i kept being swept away and so i kept screaming at darren to help mee!!..

oh yah...my lvoe actually got out of NS for me..it was such a shocker cus i didnt know he was actually coming out and then while i was in my mums room one evning my mum called me and when i came out ..there he was..smiles and all.. blush* eeks.....i was so happy cus i was thinking how sad it would be if he wasnt here in brunei..yeah anyways i went for my attachment thingy in bandar where darren picked me up early morning for breakfast then dropped me off at work...where i learned loads of thingss about the science departments in brunei and how the labs are runned here.....yeah so that was fun two weeks.. then i went to singapre with papa.mum and brandon..that was a fun 5days.i went on a shopping frenzy and it was great...i misss family time esp cus i feel so far away from them while im here...also my lil brother aint little anymore hes a boy now and its sad that i cant realli see him grow up..we dun fight as much as we did when we were little but now get along more like friends which is nice too ..

i went for a tennis camp hosted my coach domingo where coaches and players from phillipnes came..MAN it was freaking tiring and sooo sooo FUN!!i almost passed out..like 3hour training sessions under the blazing sun!! it really did test my endurance and my own motivational skills..ehhe...but i cant wait to join another one..how i wish i joined more when i was younger! ah wellls.i misss my love..i miss driving around aimlessly...time seems to always fly by when im arround him and slow down when we're apart..how sad,long distance is a bitch but im glad we dun have to do it for long..i dun care what other people think and what expectations they may have upon me cus right now all i know is that i love him and if i mean it then why not act like it..cus basically in this life we are judged by our actions and not by our words...dun hold onto the person u tink i am cus i nevr pretended to be sumthing i wasnt...i just want u to be happy but please dun create an impossible situation for me...yes,i get hurt and disappointed so dun expect me to be a porcelain dolls thats fragile n cannot be broken cus ive been thru more than u know so its my turn to be happy..

i lvoe alll my friends in brunei and it was fun hanging with them all being cacat and LOUDD!! always laughing at psycho thingss...going out for TEA and dinner...thanks guys =)