disintegrate

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i wish i could live life precariously like i had nothing to worry about except for the bees and the birds!! but unfortunately i have bigger dreams and though it seems like a shit load of work right now i hope that in the end it will be all worth it. seconds of zombi-like happiness for centuries of passion. i want to make the best out of this life and not settle for mediocrity well im not necessarily criticsing but more of questionng why settle for less when you can have more? now is that so bad?..

my mind tells me one thing but my heart tells me this:
sacrifices have to be made and no matter how hard or how impossible the truth may be in the end it will eventually come tumbling into my life so we have to decide which path its going to take the easy or the hard way. i prefer the easy way but something tells me that it most certainly will always come through the hard way. damn, my perception of beauty must be so messed up thinking that mary-kate olsen is actually pretty!! hole moley!! =P..

A lady who was a representative from parliament : a conservative MP to be exact came into skulto give a talk today during assembly. it was interesting cus we were discussing about what is the most difficult issue being faced by todays UK government. she mentioned something of deterioration of society and how we have lost our identity within a society and that our familiar structures are slowly breaking down and normal accepted behavious is no longer known. there is no incentive for working class citizens to actually want to get out of poverty as they feel it is hopeless to even try and that crimes and drugs are slowly encroaching and manipulating peoples desperation. i thought that was a really interesting point because yes there is a definite deterioration and its happening all around us which brings to mind about our traditional structures we use to have. the norms of social behavious such as what are our roles as children and adults and even grandparents though it seemed silly to generalise ..people did seem more put together and happy?it may have been unconcious happiness because that was what was expceted. was the structure so bad? was it good that we broke out all the pandora's boxes and give into ALL our desires and wants without really realising there was a reason for why society had been built up this way?...

sometimes i wonder...are we tooo smart and aware for our own good?