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i had my chem exam today module 1!! it went pretty much swimmingly!!!hahahaha...i was freaking out this morning and had minor panic attacks cus i really needed it to be good. when i was writing the exam in the hall i felt like i couldnt breathe for that one hour as i was racing against time and i mean that literally, question after question i recognized it!!! i was so happy by the end of it because it felt like all the adrenaline was pumped out of me and i can finally reach the ground again!!i just hope that my biology exam next week can go well tooo cus i am in desperate need of help with ecology i mean i love studying biology and evrything but ecology is definitely not one of my strong pointss so i jst need to continue slaving away with the books and past year papers!!! i actually celebrated today by drowning myself in gilmore girls episodes 4 hours to be exact!!..funny...i got really hyper after that and i didnt understand why. tomorrow is the start of the weekend which means it WILL be stressful , it feels as if weekdays are less stressful than weekends nowadays cus if im not doing work i feel so guilty about it so i tend to sit at my table the whole day..im such a nerdd!! i wanna stab myself!!ahhaha...but oh well thats what i need to do i guess if i want to have a chance to get into a decent university...

darren called me just noww and i miss him soo much!! well apparenly, dome cafe will now be handed over to gripps which i am so pleased about.darren and i are absolutely fanatical and obsessed with this calamari sambal thingy that they havee . well actually darren first had the obsession and i was introduced to it which made evrything spiral out of control..ANYWAYSS..im just glad their opening a branch in gadong so meaning we dont always have to travel all the way to kiulap just get it anymore!!hahaha..yeah that was a silver lining as welll..hehhe..i miss him so much and im wishing that hes back here!!! i loveee my lil bananaboat!!! >_<.... i had the randomest dream last night , i dreamt that i met up with all my old friends from panaga last time and i saw marco,ranier and hannah...it was sooo weird and in my
dream we just kept saying "itss BEEN ages since we've last seen each other" ..weirdness..

one more weeekk baby!! and im done with examss and i can start to jsut chill for abit!! then back
to london for half term holidays and meeting up with all my bruneian peeps..oh yeah 2 of my friends got an offer from oxford to do chemistry and im so happy for themm they so deserve it anyways cus their fregging geniuses.. lulu ,cathrin and i were having a conversation last nite over dinner and we were talking about china and hngkong and the whole democracy and communist parties. its really sad how most people in the world are still being unfairly treated and how each of us has the potential to make a chnage though it may be something minor just as long as your passionate about it then it will bring you a long way. we dont have to be
kings or presidents to make a difference but just do what we're great at and hopefullly make a slight contribution to the improvement of our society wherver it may be...