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anyways i did my math c3 exam today and it a complete disaster. a slight exageration?maybe! but i was still aggitated by some of the questions and i was annoyed that i couldnt answer them since the answer was just staring me in the face .oh, how i i loathe maths and i wish i didnt have to do it. i always i like maths but i have a feeling math doesnt like me! but yeah i talked to mum later and she was made me feel better well actually she was more concerned on how i was feeling since ive been ill for over a week now which i thought was sweet and it cheered me up after talking to her. my brother talked me as well telling me about his plans for his engagement dinner tomorrow in bandar and how he wished i was there too and hes quite sad that im not involved in the whole event but oh well duty calls. im feeling upset about it but then again just as long i dont miss the wedding its fine by me all i want is their happiness..eheh..

so yeah its the weekend..which DOESNT mean sleep ins or mindless tv surfing because i have a chemistry exam on the 17th! which is MAD and i need to do more revision i gave myslef the night off cus i cant seem to concentrate at the moment. hehe i found out when my last exams are and their in JUNEE!! weeeee which means il be back earlier ...earlier than planned i guess..ehehe..i cant believe i have another 5months of Alevels and its OVER!! WAA sooo scary. im gonna miss my idiot sisters when i leave, i wont be able to just walk into random rooms and start conversations when im sad,happy or just plain bored!!! dinners are usually pretty funny cuz we always sit by the same table and make random jokess about how disgusting the food can get and get overly excited when the food is GOOD...yes, we appreciate the thingss an outsider just wouldn't understand like inTERNET connections, home cooked meals, airportss and mail in our pigeon holes!haha..yes yes!! we are all we've got in a way, our families are miles away and we were maybe just 17 when we left home so we've managed to make a home away from home. though its just been a year and few months it feels like ive always had them as friends cus living with strangers is the fastest way to get to know anyone. i see them when i walk to school, go for breakfast ,some in my own classes, during lunch and then back at the boarding house, 24/7!!ahahaa..

its nice in a way knowing that your not alone and that someone shares what ur going through. cathrin came into my room and recorded over my phone messagee with stupid rhymess and laughterss in the backkground!! moments like that i will definitely missss...but now i just have to get my ass working so i can get into a decent university and make something out of myself!!! =P...but yeah home is still where my heart iss ...i misss my familYYY!!!!!!! they just crack me up sometimesss..