disintegrate

rate

im lost for wordsss..a feeeling that i cant describe and a word the philophers
couldnt explain...

sumtimes i wonder what in the world is wrong with me?..i feell completely
lost in my thoughts and all i do hope for time to be alone just so that i
can just get lost in my dreammss and let my imagination run wild...itsss completely
crazy cus i feel the loneliness creeping up and i wonder how i aallowed myself
to reach thisss point...i talked to my veetash just noww and chatted with peeps
from brunei and damn i miss them..itss like an old tshirt that no matter how
many holess it has accumulated or the colourss that fadee...it stilll seems
perfect =)...i guesss itss like loving sumthing for what itss worth and not
cus of what it may look to otherss...i just realise sumthing about myself im
a hopeless romantic and i allow my heart to be completelyy exposed and not
allow anything to get in the wayy....i expect the best and i give all MY best
cuss less is not an optionn for me...if u dun love me completelyy and hopelessly
then i will have nuthing to do with u..sumtimess when ur luckyy my heart
takes the wheell and look passs all ur flawss and the fact that u dun really love
me but once i open my eyes and realise....i cant take it and i will not accept it.
is it wrong to want be lovedd completelyy and not settle for sumthing
ordinaryy??.dun hate me cus thats just who i am...so dun tell me that u love me if u cant prove it...cus ur wordsss will just be like grains of sand on the beach that will be lost and forgotten in the midst of evrything....im completely lost in him right now and falling realllyy hard...is it reall???...
he makess me smile,laugh and safe though hes not with me...i question and
wonder if my heart is playing trickss with me like the mannyy times it has
in the past....im not afraid cus isnt that what love is all about...u jumpp off that cliff hoping that theres sumthing that will catch u before u reach bottom...!!..why live an ordinary life when it can be EXTRAODINARY!!

there is no maybee in life

u werent suppose to cumm in the picturee...i didnt seee u cuming until u were standing right in front of me...