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MERRY chRISTMAS and HAPPY New YEAR

So this may be my last post of the year as i am not sure when i'll be around internet again! winter break is starting up and im off to london! where has this year gone? im not so sure but all i know is that i enjoyed it and will be sad that its over! i loved being home for the summer hanging with the peeps and my familyy, i loved that darren visited me in april and we explored england together and experienced the horrible weather together and now that he is here it makes it even more special, i loved visiting my sister in the US as it made me fall in love with New York and everything that has to do with America!! =).. i have definitely done some crazy things and also things that hurt me in the end. i have nothing left to do now but just look straight ahead for what is instored for me i just hope that everyone will be happy and healthy for 2008! i was thinking about my resolutions for 2008 and i think that i should gain a more positive mind set and also to be grateful while not trying to grow up toooo fast.

i misss home but i have accepted the fact that i will not be returning until july and i am sure that it will be ready and waiting for me by that time,all hot and CRazy like that! i just hope that 2008 will be a much better year for me and that many more doors will open up especially with alot of hardwork and perserverence that hopefully pays off. i am quite weary troubles that might appear but i am sure that whatver comes GOD will give me the strength as he has always provided me strength during the moments i thought i would have failed. another year and another chapter. i have made even closer friends this school year and i hope that friendships made ,will be friendships kept. i miss my darren right now and i just want to be with him always.
i'll be spending christmas and new years in london so that will be amazing. i cant wait to see my brother and sister because it feels like ages since i last saw them.

things planned for 2008

1.Enter university(hopefully!)
2.Certain someones engagement?
3.Trip to Germany(hamburg)
4.get my license
5.be happppyyyy.... =P

"never regret the things that made you smile!!"

so, goodbye 2007 and hello 2008! the years are passing the leaves keep falling,
when will it end,
when will they stop,
im falling into memories of you,things we use to do!! >_<

sometimess i wish i could float away into a place where i can be freeee..............

i cant bare to face it all over again..
i cant be doing so many things wrong?not all at once..
i just want it to be simple,like it was...
but why and how did it turn out this way..
longing for the ocean breeze to blow it all away
should have appreciated it more,
this mixed emotionss wear me down,
to a point wheere i dont recognize myself anymore,

WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!

I GOT AN OFFER!!!!!...MY VERY FIRST OFFERRR...

KINGS COLLEGE LONDON, bIOMEdical Science

=)
woot woot..still waiting for the others..

tthank u GOD as it wasn't rejection

anywaysss i had the MOST AMAZING WEEKEND OF MY LIFEEEEE!!!! hehehe..weell i went to london today and weent to the intercontinental hotel to meet the sultan!! brunei hall was so jammed pack with students it was crazy.ppl didnt have rooms to sleep in so sum of my frens stayed in te lobby and had only 2hrs of sleep.so kesian for them!! but anyways we all arrived at the hotel at 11 . it was realy tight security because we had to pass through metal detectors and security guards. then we went into the massive hall. it smelled like brunei cus they were serving rendang and stuff..such a nice atmosphere cus it was basically all bruneian ppl from all over the UK.we were waiting for His Majesty for a couple of hourss and before i got too restless he arrived and gave us a very inspirational titah! it was the first time i ever heard him speak in real life and clearl enough that i could make out what he was saying.

then the madness began after that because he entered the crowd to shake hands. i managed to shake his hand the first time! but i didnt have my camera with me. then the second time i managed to ask if could take a pic with him and he said ok but when i was taking the picture someone pushed me so the picture was abit retarded cus it was mostly me but not really him.being really let down i sadly backed away and started walking the opposite direction. then all of a sudden i walked into this sspac the body guards was asking evryone to back away and it clicked in my head that i was actually standing in the place where he was gonna pass!! so i was like CCOOLL,,,so i just stood behind the body guard so no one can stand in front of me! then when His Majesty came i just asked if i could take a pic with him and he said OK!! and asked me where was i studying and i replied BEDford high school!! then some random girl helped me take a pic..such a cool pic just me and him!!!hehehe..i got sooooo hyper it was CRAZY:)...il post it up soon cus right im so knackered cus my feet are killing due to the standing and running around..but it was soo AWESOME so im all smilesss!! and we had such a funny time going back to bedford and we kept talking about how lucky it is for us to be bruneians and how generous HIs Majesty is to all of us because we basically do not have to worry about anything as our sole purpose is to STUDY nuthing more so i guess im grateful to have a king like him and being a bruneian =)...and in a way we are making him proud education wise cus alot of the peeps i know are in places like oxford(and evry year there is gradual increase in acceptance), imperial, UCL, LSE and cambridge. so thats sumthing to look forward to for the future for the bruneian government though we're not like singapore we dont have to be because we're trying our VERY best to succeed and u know what if its enough for him than its enough for us too . and as i can see the people that surrounds me are not only smart but tolerant(most of the time) so its quite exciting to see where wwe will be after 10 years.

share in the achievements of your brothers and sisters,
do not envy and do not hate
as we too can be great!!
~ness