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at rockefeller centre it was 30 degrees out but its didnt stop them from setting up the skating rink!

"Sometimes YOU just have to hit the GROUND running!!!! "

i absolutely love that saying/motto? basically i had the most amazing half term EVER it was even better than last yeaR..anyways first few days i hung out with my love and watched nanny diaries whiich was a really sweet movie and on my bday we went around london and kinda explored..hehe it was fun cus we had sushi in the park ,ate chinese with heidi and her fren, rode in carriage through SOHO but we felt bad for the dude cus he had bring our fat-asses around,then i went insane in Miss selfridges..i was in the line waiting for the changing rooms when the song in the store caught my ear and it was a song that went like ' girl, your 19 now...u gotta livee..dont need a guy...lalalaa " i was damn shocked cus i mean usually songs would be about people turning 16,18,21 or EVEN 50 but THEN it was actually a song about turning 19 it was crazy then all of a sudden darren appears from nowhere asking me if i was listneing to the song! i was laughing like crazy and couldnt stop talking about it afterwards..hehe!! >_<.. oh yeah we went around BOND streeet and we freaking SAW ClAUDIA SCHIFFER!!! like as in the modell!!! crap she came out of chanel and I WAs OMGG!!! she was like crossing the street so i wanted to cross too which almost cost me my life cus a bike was driving by and i didnt realise until darren pulled my arm..yeah but anyways we managed to cross and pass her..she's realli skinny and pretty but not extremely tall.i didnt really wanna stalk her cus that would just be weird but the funnniest thing was after we passed her we passed salvadore feragamo and the model for the Ads was HER!!..goodness!i was star struck =)

then the next day i flew to washington DC..it was such a good trip basically cus i saw my sister which made me such a happy peanut..she surprised with a trip to disney world for my birthday..shes the sweettest :P/hehe..i just went sight seeing around washington while she was working on thursday. i took pichas of the white house,capital hill and columbia uni..it was goodd..i love the states.ppl are so friendly in comparison to the uk and the weather is so nice when i was there it was sunny and hot which was amazing..on friday we went to georgetown it was such a cute and quaint town it looked exactly like in the movies. in the evening we watched 'heartbreak kid' which was so funnyy!! and stupid then after then we went for dinner with claudette.

saturday we used the bus down to NYC and it was such an Experience.the first i saw was madison square garden which reminded right away of NSYNC..the good ol days..it was this huge ass arena and its like most well-known arena in NYC that it even has its own channel on TV!!! then we checked and went sight seeing..loads of camwhoring and starbucks stops..i cant explain the whole trip but to round it all up it was a great experience and everythin reminded me of backdrops of different movies and the movie that kept coming to mind was ELF , thats the ultimate funny movie so i kinda laughed to myself when i entered the empire state building!! its such an amazing city and the energy is felt throughout. its a mix of all sorts of people with multi-cultural background the ultimate melting pot!

tuesday we flew over to orlando where we visited DisnEy world! i know it sounds completely spastic but when i ffirst laid eyes on the cinderella castle which by the way DOES REALLY EXIST!!! ahahah...i had goosebumppsss alll over cus ive always wanted to go but never had the chance to and there i was...living up to the disney motto.."WHERE DREAMS COME TRUE....."basically i went to magic kingdom and universal cus we didnt have enough time to visit the other parks..we rode on this ride which drops down 5stories and splashes into a sea of water it was insane i saw my life flashed before my eyES!! my sis and i got completely soaked and it was freeezing so we bought disney shirts..i even managed to ride in the MAD-Tea party!!! its the ride with the massive tea cups from alice in wonderland i always dreamt of sitting in them though they made me feel like puking afterwards but it didnt matter!! theres something about that place that made me feel like an 8year old all over again..

in all honesty the atmosphere there is so much lighter and friendlier compared to here. it isnt the stereotypical place where people think at any moment you'll get terrorist attacks i mean there just normal people trying to get by just like everyone else. the food portions were insane i had the best salad and hot chocolaTE EVERR!!! goodness..it felt like heaven!! :P the american accent is sooooo coooooolll!!! i sound so all-american obssesseD!hahahaha....oh welllss...arrived in heathrow saturday night and now im back in schoolll..time to get serious and get my head out of LALA land all over again...at the moment i have a cold and keep sneeezing it ss really NOt FUNNY but i tink its just side affects from the constant change of weather conditions and time difference..it was all worth it in the end :P

"pretend everday is your birthday, and that you can do anything you want to do!"

the sun is out and i feel ratherrr blur!! im just online waiting for him to get out of classs..hehe

just another 12more hours and it shall be my Birthday!! damn i am so self obsesseDd..i mean people are usually quite subtle about their birthdays and hope ppl with remmeber own their own but NOT mE il tell anyone who'll listen its MY birthday tomororw!ahhaha...just cusss i am happy i guess!hhheheh and thankful for my mum who had to go through that agonizing pain for me!!dammitt!!..scary..hehee

anywayss...i dun have much to say at the moment cus im hungry and im walking to mall to sit in costa and start reading my book!! the sun is out so evrything looks pretty and warm..its a sign for me to get out of this seat that i have been super glued to for the past hour.yday darren brought me to a malaysian society raya thingy..ehhe it was pretty good except i didnt know anyone started missing the peeps in brunei halll..

so SELAMAT HARI RAYA MAAF ZAHIR BATIN!!

TODAY IS MY SISTERS BIRTHDAY!!!!!??!!! i LOve u ceki!!......hope it was a great one!muakz

sometimes just sometimes...i wish*

its amazing how much free time i have to blog!..i have no life =_=..anyways i just came back from school.i had a chemistry test which was ok i guess but i could be dead wrong after i get the resultss!! there was this one question which i totally didnt geTT!!! i mean i was staring at it hoping sumthing will click in my brain!! but literallly i was in a blank StaRE!!! i mean what the hell is chromium +VI? i have never come acrosss it in my life!! then went to look for mrs.samuels to ask her on my application for a work experience in Glaxo-smith and Kline! i hope i get in!hehe..then after lunch the girls went to the common room and started looking at japanese fashion magazineS!! damn their soo pretty but about 99% of them had plastic surgery..number 1.EYES number 2.Nose number 3.mouth!! they actually do it in that order cus its this fad in japan!! i tot it was an interestting point of the day there was also this article on ayumi hamasaki she looked like nicole richie for some reason! anwyays she had like luggages and luggages of louis vuittons..and it occurred to me what if i had them and i was traveelling economy i mean il be basically be asking to be ROBBED!..yeah but i dun have to worry about that cus i wont be having luggages and lugagges of LV anytime soon...so lucky me?

i have been through quite alot of ups and downs in my life. they have all left a scar on me and i am definitely the person i am today because of it. i have been hurt,happy,grateful,heartbroken,lied to,made feel special,ovrcome death...some thingss are better left unsaid especially the things that i cant change..things will never go back to the way they were.im turning 19 and thats my last year as a teenager and in a way its the end of an eRa! gosh!!,,its insane i have no regrets but just some unanswered questions which i think will be left unanswered. if sumone were to ask me if i had spent my youth wisely and to the fullest i can honestly say up to this point yes i have! it definitely wasnt PERFECT but i wouldnt have changed it for anything. i wasnt the most rebellious and yet i wasnt a cookie-cutter as well. im just glad my parents brought me to have my priorities straight. my teenage life was always a roller coaster one crazy thing after another. even my dream to be a pro-tennis player( now that was fun) ,

my family has always been my back bone in my life without even realising it. they always huddle by my side and support me throughout my life and we have the occasional bickering but we all know that deep down theres only love.my life-long friends that i made through all those years has been one of the main highlights and all the memories are preciously stored up in my heart,they taught me how to laugh and to be who i am without having to give a reason .i ve always treasured all of them and wouldnt trade them for anything.the greatest thing about childhood freinds is that once you come back it feels as though nuthing has changed and we still laugh over the most mundane and stupid things!and also my longest standing relationship it was perfect in its own lopsided way cus he was my best fren & boyfren all wrapped into one but i guess thats the way first love rships are a bitter/sweet memory because it was the time i endured so much sadness and happiness as it was the first time i had ever been in love. All and all...i have no regrets it was good 7years from being completely naive to being alittle bit more skeptical.

The best thing about growing up is having to realise what you want out of your life and realising the possibilities!most people still dun have the answers they need but we're all edging towards something at least something that interest us. now im just excited to see whats instored for me and for u,i just hope its something goodd..

so anyways..its tuesday which means 3more days till my half term holidays!!..hehehe..weee..exCitED!!!..wel cus my birthday is coming up in a week and i'll probaly be spending it with dARRenn(>_<)....ehhehe and i dun know whats planned for me yet!!..ahaha..yess!! and also i'll be flying off to see my sister in washington!! and im also going to New York!! waaaaa i cant believe it!!!..hehehe...its weird how i spent my last birthday in paris and now in new york! i feel so blessed!...it should be fun sight seeing with my sister!! especially cus she booked a room in time square so as she puts it 'where all the action is '...

it has been extremely cold lately and its only october! ive been a walking ice cube in skul..with my coat and scarfss!! esp cus i have a cold now!!...i talked my mum this morning for abit and just falt a twinge of sadness cus i really miss her. last nite i was in jeniffers and claries room with cathrin wheere we talked for like 2 HOURSS..HomigoSHH!!....we didnt realise we were talking for that longg!!!...yeah i have a chemistry test tomorroww!!! i hope i dun faill...dammit!

i misss my childhood friends!!..high school seems like a million years ago right now! and all im doing is waiting for the days to pass...i got my exam schedule today and i have 3 in january which isnt tooo bad cus some of my freinds have like 7 papers to sit for!! thatss insane!!sometimes i wished i went to into financing or investmentss...my whole life i have always chosen sciences just because it was the route i was familiar with and the arts was somewhat looked down upon which i think is completely stupIDdd!!..but anywyas theres no turning back noww!!..

Never forgotten,never forsaken
and nevER stoppeddd being loveD...
WE are all a walking contradiction!

so yeah..our internet in the boarding house is momentarily blocked!!..itss rather annoying and yet funny at the same time cus now we;re all finding ways in which we can entertain oursleves. ive been watching movies and seriess!!!...yes yess..its a great distraction!! university applications still annoying but im just leaving it all up to god and just patiently wait for the outcome. my brother and sister are coming to london for christmas and that'll be great cus im probably not going home in dec. im happy about that cus at least i get to spend time with him before he jumps ship!!!hahaha.. probably the greatest part about succeeding ur dreams is actually realising how capable you are.

i feel that somethings and experiences are meant to be left behind and there are some that should be held on to forver. i just realised how il never get back the time that im having right now and im actually going to miss IT. esp when im in uni. the days are passing so fast that weeeks feel like days. it sure has passed even faster than last year this time. and autumn is definitely here. leaves are wilting and covering the streets. pretty but tends to get smelly.hehe...half term is coming up next week and so much to do before that.just soaking evrything in and enjoying the ride.

change is inevitable and acceptance is crucial.

smiles are good, but laughters are better =)...

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