disintegrate

rate

revision ,revision and MORE REVISION!!!???!!.. at the rate im going im gonna jump out of my room window though it cant even open properly!!..feeling the stress of evrything right now..stop pressuring me to do well..dont u think i know that i have to do well..if u think its motivation its realli NOT helpingg mee...if anyone should know better its me , i mean if i fail im the one that has to live with the consequencess...i know ur afraid that i might not succeedd but pls i need my space and some air to breathe before i suffocate to death..why do we have such short attention spans?...sumtimes i wonder if its the fear that once u actually take it seriously and browse through the book that u realise u realli DO NOT know anything and figure its too late to do anything about it now cus exams are right around the corner...so ud rather avoid the whole thing by procrastinating...we'd rather give up and not try at alll..rather than TRYING than later on failing cus that damages one self even more...trying with no positive outcomes...with not trying we have the comfort of saying..well i didn even try so yeah thats why i failed so i know im smart but just lazy u know!!...

hrrmmm....i said it once and il say it agen..the education system is screwed UP!!...education numbs us from feeling reality and setting up goals that not evryone can achieve...its unfair and its like a house of cards waiting to crumble...

i really missed him during that time and i realised i wannaa be with him forver and ever...doesnt matter how naive and senseless it all may sound...i realli dont caree!!?!!..he tries to understand me and provides me with a reason to trust him..in a way thats all i need...i have to stop playing the blame game and take responsibility for my own actions...i love him and i dont care what anybody else says about it...we're living in our own bubble ...hes my bubble - BOY!!??!!!...=)

things change,ppl change!!..
ive changeddd....
dun wait for me..
cus the one ur waiting for...
isnt showing up anymore...