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why do i feell so sad rite now?..i just did a whole load of bio revision and now im feeeling so drained up...i feeel like im stuck in a slow and silent movie where everything seemms to make sense from a distance but tend to turn to confusion once closely examined...

im starting to get use to this place and really liking all the frens that ive made...itss quite fun boarding cuz we get to give random room visiitss and laugh at who has the messiest rroom..and claries,vanessa and keiko won handss down...and last nite at 12 evryone met infront of my room to wake jenny up my roommate to sing her happy birthday with this german cake we bought from lidl's(my first time there!!!)..ahahaha...that had a hole in the middle of it..it was pretty punny cuz jenny was soo soo blur!!...i hate waking up in the morningss itss like freakishly coldd!!! and like my bed seemss like the safest place in the whole wide world at 715am in the morning...anywayss since ive beenn here we've been having tonness of talks on universities and applications so anyways this graduate from liverpool performing arts university came and waas talkin about how great her uni was cuz it was actually set up by paul mcartney for musicians and ppl in the performin arts to sharpen their skilss up to a professinal level she told us that dion warwick actually came once to give a talk about her road to successs that we pretty awesome...

she was this girl whowas 5feet and looked asian but had a peculiar accent..and she was talking about herself being a sound tech engineer and how it was a male dominated profession and like how she had to prove herslef cus when ppl saw her they were like what the helll?...ur not our sound tech!!...so yeah..ahah she was just saying hooww no matter how different u are ul have to prove urself and just kick ass while doing it....i guess i was kinda like realy motivated in that sense like who gives a crap that im like freaking petite!!...aahhaha...that doessn matter all that matters is that i believe in myself and that i know what im capable of...i wana live my life the way i seee fit..and not care what ppl mite think of it...i may change and i may say the wrong things but who doesnt?..

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things werent suppose to turn out this way,
u werent suppose to leave that way,
ive turn my back and walked away,
i tell myself that evrythings gona be ok.